9:30 P.M. Friday Dec. 21I'm so glad it's vacation now I can write all I want. I was just looking at my handwriting from last night--it certainly shows that I'm confused about Steve, & it's the truth. Contradictions abound in this unusual piece of literature. Not one person I've ever liked has liked me--only people I don't like: Mark V___, Grant K___, John J___, Page E___ & Bill Z___. I don't know if they like me but last night Brooks said that Page wanted him (Brooks) to introduce me to him (Page) & I said I didn't want to--then I finally said okay & then Brooks ditched us & stupid ugly Page asked me to dance & I said no--MEAN MARISA MAUD. (Bowe) Then later I sat down in a chair & Bill Z___ sat next to me & there was nothing I could do but talk to him & he asked me to dance at the next fast dance & I said he'd have to ask me when they played it cuz I didn't know. Then he did ask me later & I sort of had to.
Brad W___ was just sitting there as usual, not saying one word. He was staring at me as if I was just terribly disgusting, oh dear! & I shouldn't have let it bother me, but it did so I went over & danced with Sarah & Brian & 2 other people I didn't know. They had their arms around each other's shoulders doing a kick dance & I started dancing with them. When we were done I went over & made a face at Steve & he SMILED AT ME!He said, "C'mon now, ya gotta give the guy a break!" I said, "I did!" Then I started telling what I was telling Jay J___ before (he's pretty nice, too, ya know?) about how I'm 1)nice, 2)generous, 3)considerate, 4)a good samaritan, 5)generally perfect, & 6)a genius, too. It seems to me that almost everyone (who isn't fake, like Lucy W___) has potential to be a genius, some way or another.--Marisa Bowe. A DIRECT QUOTE. But it's not fun to be too intelligent, I know that from experience. AND, it's no fun to be intelligent all the time, I LIKE to be dumb sometimes.
